HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME {MY BIRTHDAY MESSAGE)

Hey guys, it’s my birthday today and I would like to put a few things about me out here, let me just say how blogging came to play in my life. But first, my names are AKINYEMI BARAKAT ADUNI, born on November 3^rd 199…., born and breed in mushin papa ajao to be precise in the city of lagos

MY BAD HABITS

Am a temperamental person, abusive and rude, hate to be corrected and I stuff myself with food when angry {we all have our bad habits tho}

MY EDUCATION

I don’t really remember much from my elementary class, only remember a few people I see often and still in touch with each other. Fast forward to my primary education, I graduated from primary school in 2011, went to a boarding school for my junior secondary school education Abeokuta Girls’ Grammar School {AGGS] and I came back to lagos for my secondary school education New state High School[NSHS}. I graduated from secondary school in 2013, did my first joint admission matriculation board{JAMB} exam that year and passed my West African Examination Council{WAEC} that same year but didn’t apply for any university then because my jamb result could only take me to a polytechnic. I kept writing jamb over and over again till I gained admission in 2016 into Lagos State University{LASU} to study physical and health education[PHE] didn’t like the course but had no choice but to take it like that and when I started enjoying the course I was sent out of school in 2017 all because I used my mum state instead of my dad which is not allowed in LASU, unknown to me.

The day I was sent out of school was the first day I cried in a public place amidst crowd, didn’t know when I started crying because I was talking and crying at the same time.. ”Dad, oya let’s go home,am not a student of lasu anymore, am strong,everything happens for a reason”, these were the exact words I said then. Getting home that day, I slept off immediately, became awfully quiet, stopped talking to everyone, hoping everyday I wake up that they were going to call me back, praying for it to be a dream but NO, life hits me real hard, I felt useless at home, wake up everyday with nothing to do, no plans for the day. There were times I go through my course outline, my timetable, the pictures I took with my friends, 4 amazing girls in my department which I met during registration and we became friends, I can proudly call them my friends because they were there for me, the calls, the message, the memories..glad I met them, guess this was the only good thing that came out of my admission then and we are still good friends till date.

My days became long and useless, people keep asking questions and I kept lieing to them…” I stopped going because I didn’t like the course, I want to change my course” this was the same lie I was telling everyone (to those of you I lied to, I’m sorry), it was half the truth tho. February 2017 I started jamb tutorials and people felt have resumed school so they stopped asking questions, did my exam passed, I was so sure I was going back to school that year. While waiting for the list to come out, I decided to keep myself busy then a friend of mine said blogging, I was like blogging because I had no idea how to go about it and I rejected the idea, then I gave it a second thought and boom I started blogging. Mind you, I met the cut off mark and all, still no admission and I made up my mind am not going to school again.

HOW BLOGGING CAME TO PLAY AND STAY IN MY LIFE

I started blogging july 2017 and it wasn’t easy at all. I started as a relationship blogger and there were a lot of critics from people I know, my friends made jest of me, I was abused to my face, I was called different names, I just smile at them but deep down am crying, wanted to give up. Actually I almost did because I stopped blogging for a while, I took a long break, but when I go through my blog, the comments, I said to myself, if people around me don’t value or respect what I do, that’s their problem not mine, they wouldn’t stop talking anyways, some of the people that were making fun of me then still messaged me that they don’t see my post anymore, some said to myself they haven’t opened my blog for once and they kept asking are people visiting my blog, I just smiled and said to them you guys are my fan, whether you want to admit it or not and started blogging again, changed a lot of things on my blog and it’s been good.

LIFE HITS ME AGAIN

I said earlier on that am not going to school again, it was a lie, because I wrote jamb again this year which makes it my 6^th time writing jamb, passed and still no admission. Ever since the admission in 2016,I became a different person, people see me as this happy girl and a girl who smile and play a lot but deep down am nothing like that, I just fake it when am in the midst of people.

I get a lot of message, comments from people I know and people I don’t know saying they want to be like me, I just smile. Some of the people have not been in contact with are now coming back and claiming to be my friend. Ma/sir, I don’t have this perfect and big life you all think I have, am just trying to give myself life and I still don’t have any idea of what am doing or where life is taking me. I still want to go to school, it’s the first thing on my to do list. Most people don’t believe when I tell them am not in any university so am using this opportunity to say it again, I’m not in any university.

I didn’t put this out here for pity, I hate it when people pity me, I just want to let it all out and give myself the best life have always dreamed off and don’t have to worry about what to tell people when they ask me about school. And now a happy girl, I just live the way life comes, I meet new people often and I enjoy myself with no cash in my bank account, I can shout on top of my voice.. I AM HAPPY WITH MY LIFE, even though this wasn’t how I planned it to be.

LAST WORDS

To the people out there, no matter what you going through, don’t give up, it all going to make sense one day, just keep pushing… Your perfect plan isn’t God’s plan for you, just trust GOD and stop comparing yourself to other people, I do that a lot but that was before not anymore. Most of my friends have graduated, finished service, some are married, some are dead and some still don’t know what to do with their life.

 Be your own kind of happiness and live life as it comes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ONCE MORE

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